Well that was intense.
I woke up around 3AM and couldn’t get back to sleep. That’s been happening more in the last year or so. So fun! And instead of doing what a normal person might do - roll over, read, make tea - I decided, apparently, to try our Enigma Cruise vibrator. At 3AM. Yep.
I haven’t had anything inside me for pleasure in…what? Six years? Unless you count my own fingers, or maybe one or two of my girlfriend’s. So my logic (if you can call it that) was basically, fuck it. Let’s see what happens.
I started with just my fingers on my clit, in the dark, trying to breathe and relax into my body. My brain was going in 8 million directions though. One second I was with the sensation, the next I was thinking about the gynecologist, then the last time I was penetrated by a dick. Ugh. Too much to think about. Also, there’s gotta be better words besides dick or penis. Not exactly erotic, but I kept trying to loosen up.
Eventually I turned the vibrator on, cycled through the settings and grabbed lube. I tried just using the clitoral suction part first, but the shape made it awkward, so I shifted and pressed the G-spot head to my entrance.
"Deep breaths. Unclench..." I told myself. My body did open more easily that way, though it still took a few tries. There was pain. Stretching. But eventually..success!
I set it to the lowest vibration and just sat with it, letting myself adjust to something new. The clitoral suction was…interesting. Possibly too intense for me right now. I noticed that changing the angle of my hips made it hit different spots inside, which brought up different feelings.
I took it out sooner than I maybe needed to, partly because I started feeling like I had to pee really bad 😂. Messing around with different settings before that was interesting, though. First I had it on the lowest constant vibration, then tried a few others that I could see coming back to. Some of them felt really nice.
It was intense, but not in a bad way. I didn’t want to put pressure on it. And I was fuzzy because it was the middle of the night! I didn’t have a “goal” of trying to orgasm, I just wanted to try it and see if it felt good. And it did. Not mind-blowing (yet!), but good enough to want to do it again.
Next time I’m curious to play with angles more, and maybe try a vibrator without the suction but still with that G-spot/clit combo. Let the search begin!
♡ Anna
